Frustrated me…

i do not know why…

i’m pissed and frustrated with myself..

i wanna shout everything out!

A bored, and wasted long weekend i’ve wasted…

actually it was gonna be a fun filled weekend..

Dinner with amblove on thursday night, kite flying and picnic with bbfs on friday, dinner with bbfs on saturday and movie with bbfs on sunday.

but i attended NONE of the above outings!

As my cousin are getting married soon and my mum are busy shopping for clothings and stuff for the wedding. so i was thinking maybe i should reserve some time for her and accompany her and my aunt this weekend.

Thursday, OT, therefore couldn’t join amblove for dinner..

Friday, went for shopping spree with mum and aunt.. but eventually turned out real bored and in between, some pissed and unhappy moments occurred.

Saturday, was supposed to meet bbfs for dinner, but she say she wanna go recontract her plan for a new phone.. and in the end drag till the night, nothing was done.. i was like huh? wasted another day of mine…

and another thing that i’m frustrated with myself is money… as i’m getting kinda tight recently, having to buy xmas present, and my mum requesting for a expensive gifts and stuff, savings for my bkk trip in one months time… argh! **** ! BBFs suggested for the xiao long bao buffet tonight and i so wanted to go.. as i’m craving for one.. but.. after consideration, i rejected.. as it’s gonna be a expensive dinner and as the dinner is at 10pm at holland v, a cab back home would be my tpt for the night.. and that’s gonna add on to the expenses for this dinner.

tomorrow, my bbfs are watching twilight, new moon and although i didn’t catch the previous part , i dun mind watching the movie with them despite me having a high chance of not knowing wat is happening in the movie … but i’m afraid i’m gonna spoil the mood of everyone tmr. so i rejected once again..

at this very moment.. i hate myself, i hate lots of stuff… i hate what i’m right now..

please ignore this post if u happen to read it.. as i’m just venting out my anger, my frustrations on this blog of mine.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ****~!